Old friends, now ends

Have you ever outgrown a friend or have a friend outgrown you? Like you were inseparable and then, there was a time gap and now you meet again and its like something leftover. Out of courtesy to the past, you try to reignite that togetherness but there is no kindling there to capture the flame.

In someway, I feel lucky not to have big list of close friends. At the most can just count on fingers how many close friends I have. Like we normally say, People come into our life for a season, reason or lifetime. Mostly its only for a season or reason. Lifetime friendship occurs very very rarely.

Nothing personal, but I and one of my friends were in touch all these years after schooling, though on and off as life took us. Suddenly she made a plan to visit Dubai and then to Hyd to meet friends and relatives. At first, it was really very exciting that she was coming to spend time and had planned where to go and what to do. When she arrived at the airport, we hugged and then first day went well with lots of talk about the old memories that we had. After that somewhere I started feeling that the attachment we had in school was not there. She had her stories and I had to just give her a shoulder.

When we went to Hyd, things slowly changed into different angle. We had planned for some trip and there i found that she had a reason for the trip. Hence, Friends for a REASON!!! As the days of our trip were ending, I was feeling out of place totally. And just felt when i would go back to my life. Somewhere could sense the same thing the other way too. And was damn sure that once we leave, it would be like thats it! And it so happened!!

You were actually friends because it was the present and the future had not yet occurred. It is just that the time, place, life has changed. When we were friends, we were very good friends, I never apologize for that. We shared experiences, problems, were there for each other, had laughed, cried, cared enough. That it expired on the shelf is just one of those things. The magic faded. It happens. But no need to lament the loss at the expense of the good times. No regrets for anything!

It so happened that after 26 yrs of schooling, could find out few classmates through social media. And as we know with the help of Whats-app, a group was formed. With enthusiasm and curiosity everyone chatted few days and found about others. Later had a reunion also. After that the feelings started to vanish slowly. One can say it may be due to ego or attitude about each other...(I felt so, no offense) Just for the sake of it, group still exists but none chats like before.

One more friend had come to Dubai, just for a day. But we had good time. Talking about many things, sharing old memories. Learnt that friendship spark clicks with few and not everyone.

Everyone seems matured but actually we are not. We neither are child like, being in present. Somethings keep bothering about someone but just cant say to them. Some back-stab for their selfishness that cannot be forgiven. Some have complex comparing others. In all these, friendship fades away.

Whatever happens, LIFE GOES ON.. with or without anyone! We have to live being ourselves and enjoy life as it goes!